Life
September 25, 2007
Circumstances in my life right now have prevented me from writing as I have wanted. It is not really that I lack the time or the resources, but moreso the motivation. I still think about life and the people in it, but am tired of being slighted. I am drained emotionally and am just trying to find myself right now. Will try to get back to writing here as soon as possible.
People Person
September 20, 2007
People are stupid. A person has a chance, but people as a group are stupid. They cannot think as a unit and therefore cannot be as productive as the individual. An individual will work and scheme to be better than the next whereas the group will contain slackers who depend on the others to pick up where they lack. It is the lack of motivation as a group that people become inert. A person is mobile. People are swayed by the masses whereas a person questions his own reality.
Good God!
September 19, 2007
Free will is not mutually exclusive with the omniscience of God; God’s foreknowledge does not force me to do or not do an action (after all, I don’t have the same knowledge so how do I know I am doing that which is ‘preconceived’). I know and egg will break if I drop it, but does my knowledge of this make it any more possible or impossible? Measuring determinism to knowledge is like measuring carrots to tires– two separate entities…
God does not have to prove Himself; He would not be any more ‘God’ if He did one more miracle than He already has or chose not to make the rain stop. Just as I can’t be anymore ‘Jen’– I just am and there is no one like me, God just IS. The real issue should not be if God is possible, but if an actual creator exists (then….lol….look around…it’s apparent)…
The president met you four years ago…once. He sees you again and remembers your name. Do you feel special?
God knows your name, the number of hairs on your head, the intimate thoughts in your head, and has your name engraved on the palms of his hands. He has promised men in exchange for you…how much more special do you feel?
God’s Love
September 18, 2007
What the Church says: God is love. He is omnipotent (all-powerful), omnipresent (everywhere), and omniscient (all knowing). God is merciful, forgiving, and is the father of all. God loves all his children. All who follow him will go to heaven; sinners go to hell.
What they say: How can God be so loving and there are children dying, wars, and unjustified homicides? What kind of ‘love’ promotes war and chaos? What kind of ‘love’ allows for such a place as hell? After all, if he forgives all our sins, why the need? If God is all-good, he wouldn’t allow this state of being we call civilization. If God is omnipotent, he would not allow the bad that which he knows we are going to do. If he were omniscient, he would know to stop us or change our actions before they do ‘wrong’ or ‘bad’. **An aside: some say there is no right and wrong even. This will be discussed in later posts.
What I say: God loved us so much that he gave us free will. Think about it: did you like it as a child when your parents did not let you do that which you wanted to do? How beneficial would it have been if they decided to make all your decisions for you unto adulthood? What is it we are taught? That we need to make our own mistakes in order to be a better person? Why is this same concept not applied to the father-child relationship that is God and man? God allows us to be who we want to be in order for us to grow. We can’t know that we need him til we need him; we can’t know that the blindness that is ignorance is a crutch until we find out for ourselves. Who wants a forced love?
So if we have this free will, how can God control us? Is this not the antithesis of free will? How does a master control his slave if he has freed his slave? He has no more control over this fellow man than the next master. If we are going to use a vacuum test for every quality of God, we have to use it for the non-quality. Think about it: if God controlled us at all times, how is he loving us? How is he letting us be who we are. Moreover, God wouldn’t have to love us as then we would be nothing more than robots that he controls– toys to play with. It defeats the purpose of a loving God, a Father, a reason for life.
God is not fair– he does not have to be– he’s just. A judge may send away his only son to imprisonment for life for killing a man, but that does not mean that he loves his son any less. Is it fair that he has to send away his only son? Some would not think so; moreover, he would not think so. Is it just? The law is the law; a judge cannot deny that which has been established by the lawmakers. Why is God not fair? Because it would contradict his very nature. It would mean that he would have to intervene and control our every move; sure, not all of us are killers, rapists, or child molesters, but then we are presuming to set standards on what is a greater or lesser evil. If God has to intervene in instances of ‘greater’ evils, why not ‘lesser?’ To control us would to kill our nature and our very being. It would eliminate our identity. By not being ‘fair’ by our standards, He really is being fair by a universal standard: is it not more fair to allow us to be who we are and to be afforded the glory of God and Heaven than not? Relativity tells us that there can not be a standard of what is and is not fair so how can we hold anyone let alone God accountable to a dynamic illusion?
God’s knowledge of what I am going to do does not make him any more or less loving. Jesus wept. Is it not the natural reaction of a parent to weep when their child has gone against what they have taught them? Just because God does not do anything in our eyes, does not mean that he is not doing anything at all. He can cry right along with us, can he not? But actually, God does not have to react at all to be more ‘godly’ than he already is. He does not have to prove himself. Do you have to prove who you are to your parents on a daily basis? To your wife? Perhaps your kids!? Why then does God have to repeatedly prove himself to us? Why does he have to be a good guy for our viewing pleasure and to appease our logic? Where does it say in any book anywhere that God must do xy and z in oder to prove that He is who we know him to be? Since when did we set the standards of the Almighty?
We bitch and complain that God is not loving by not stopping baby killers and child molesters. We argue that he isn’t loving because he does not give them their just deserves. Yet we don’t like the idea of hell? We don’t like the idea that God would set up a place to punish the very beings we despise because said place is also a contradiction of his loving nature… Remind me again…what is fair? …But wait, is God throwing people in the lakes of fire without warning? Does he hold a random lottery where he decides who will go and who will stay? Is there no forewarning of the consequences to come? Then how is he bad? How is he not being just, fair, or even loving? He loves us so he sets up a place where we can live in eternal happiness. Would you be happy forever with the sinners of the earth? You don’t seem very happy now…
Until next time: I have not even touched the tip of the iceberg of what ‘I say.’ Stay tuned for the cluster fock that is my mind.
Tags: God is love, free will
Love-ly
September 17, 2007
**Preface: Again, as with all my musings, this is fiction, but also has a hint of truth. I believe in writing as much as thinking so it helps to write ’short diddies’. Try it– it works sometimes. This is 1/2 musing 1/2 poem…couldn’t figure out which it is more of so it gets both categories.**
I’m in love with the most amazing person you could ever hope to meet… and I don’t know how to stop. But I need to.
By nature, I am an insomniac. This habit is proliferated by battles of depression that I have from time to time. I can’t help it. But I want to.
I just want to be loved. Just like anyone else, right? And I don’t know how to stop my desires to feel loved. But I need to.
By nature, I am an affectionate person. To the ones I love and hold dear to my heart. It’s always been my way. I can’t help it. But I want to.
I can’t get my feelings across without them being stomped on. I just want to be heard without interruption. And I can’t stop crying. But I need to.
By nature, I am hyper-sensitive. I can’t control the emotions switch of my brain so the tears flow even when I don’t want them to. I can’t help it. But I want to.
I am tired of being misunderstood. That in todays values, old love and honor is lost is a pity. I can’t fathom ignoring my spouse. But I need to.
What I need and what I want are mere manifestations of my desire to make the ones I love happy… but when my heart actually truly physically aches…who is around to make me happy?
Tags: love, affectionate, happy
Football…Again
September 16, 2007
Yeh, I may have to make Sundays during the football season a dead day…
Nazarene
September 15, 2007
Why, Nazarene, do you help these men?
They forget you, curse you, and use you
Their faith without works, carpenter-
When did they help you win?
They listened to your words
But they did not care for a Jew
As you were crucified.
They listen to my words- light;
They kill, steal, lie, and turn from you.
What smooth talking ways do you have?
With your do’s and don’ts and trying to do right?
Come on down here, Nazarene
Take your children home.
Do you think they’ll remember you?
Not with me here to cause a scene.
