Why I Shouldn’t Be A Christian
March 6, 2008
I was surfing the net and came across an article written by a mother about her son’s revelation that he was gay. She speaks of what her own feelings on homosexuality were before going through this ‘trial’ with her son. When I started to read it, I wanted to stop immediately. But rather than close myself off like she was presenting herself as doing, I continued to read. It was not getting any better.
She tells of when she read the note from her son that she had to call him and talk to him. She says that she made reference to Romans 8:38-39 where the Bible explicitely tells us that there is nothing that can seperate us from the love of God. STOP!
There is nothing.
Now wait a minute. Is it not the Christian advocate that dooms me to hell for loving another woman? Is it not the Christian advocate that says that God does not love me? Yet the Bible poses a different stance? The Bible is saying that my God loves me no matter what!?!?! “Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature shall be able to separate us from the love of God.” I would think that the all-knowing and all-powerful God would first know what He is talking about, but second have the power to still love me. Do you doubt His power? Cause I don’t.
Sure, God may not condone my actions (again, another debate for another post), but nor does he condone the actions of any sinner. And that is what we all are: sinners.
Back to the story. She goes on to say that she tried to tell her son that he needed to renounce this lifestyle. She did some investigative work and apparently found an organization of ex-homosexuals who had essentially come back to God. Hoping her son would jump on the opportunity to be reformed, she presented him with her newfound knowledge. He told her that he did not feel trapped, and moreover that he was born gay. To which she writes of her sorrow over his deception. STOP!
Does not the Bible teach that we are all sinners at birth? Therefore if we are born sinners and to be gay is a sin, how is it wrong to say that we were born gay? We were born with this sin (again, a debate for another post) that is homosexuality.
Back to the scared sinner. She goes on to tell about these wounded souls that her son brings home from time to time; whether or not she is convinced that they have turned gay because of the scars they hide or wear is not apparent, and I do not want to make assumptions, but the direction was there.
I was abused as a child. My mother would beat us with whatever she could get her hands on the quickest. If it was the vaccum chord or the stainless steel spatula, she did not care so long as it was readily available. Yet, my sister got the real brunt of the abuse. My mother knew it would hurt me so much more than any beating ever could– to see her hit my sister and me not being able to do anything about it. She beat my sister once with this belt that was made of crushed jewels. It had no protective covering over it so even the slightest touch might prick you. I wanted to lunge at my mother that night.
So why is it that my sister has two beautiful kids and is about to marry the man whom she thinks is the world? And yet I am the one madly in love with the woman whom I think is the world? Perhaps we wear our scars differently, but I did try to have relationships with men. But there was never any chemistry. How do I know? Because the sparks and physical reactions that I have when I just think about my baby’s love for me is something that I have never felt with any man. My whole body tingles when she says just even my name. And the Christian advocate wants me to turn away love? The very love that they seek out themselves but can embrace because they get it from a man?
There is wonderful read by Bertrand Russell called Why I Am Not a Christian. Every time I read it, I leave with something new. While it is not really relevant to the topic of homosexuality, it does address ‘the church’ and ‘religion’ as he sees it and more. I could never denounce God and will make a post in the future about my thoughts on this particular read, but I believe that Christian advocates are a great reason why I should not be a Christian. It is just a shame that I know the truth far too well not to not be one.
Tags: homosexuality, Bible, God, Christian, Christian advocate
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You ask very good questions. I recently went to a Regenerations banquet that talked much about this and how the sin of “homosexuality” is kind of weird in the church. Why it is held in secrecy along with pornography and other sexual sins and desires. It was very interesting but also heart warming to hear these folks who struggled with same sex attractions, addictions to sex etc and come through and have a great relationship with the Lord etc.
Not putting you down but it seems that the few Christians you come in contact with are not the ones who truly understand God. Yes he condones your actions, but he LOVES us all. End of story, he isn’t going to sit in his chair on your judgement day and say, well you made out with this woman and lived your life the wrong way for so long, He will say, your heart is true to me in the end days, you are my child.
Take heart in your life, don’t let all Christians make up the majority. Same way with Osama Bin Laden, yes he is Islamic, but why is “he” the face of Islam to so many of us when there are millions of Islamics who hate him..
End of my rant - sorry.
http://www.regenerationministries.org/ this is what I attended.
Have a great day and God bless!