Sunday Sermon
October 26, 2008
My life has always been a hectic one; just when I think things are going well for me, they make a turn for the worse. I cannot seem to get a break in this game called life. Even when I think about getting one, I do not know if I would know what to do with it. There are just times where I think that I’d rather just ‘be’ and do nothing at all: don’t eat, don’t sleep, don’t work….just be.
When everything seems to be too much, I curse God. I wonder why He hates me so much. I just cannot understand it. All my life I have been shitted on, but done nothing to warrant the bullshit. I have loved and worshiped God since Jr. High so why doesn’t He love me like I love Him?
I realized coming home today that I get this way in my most dire of circumstances. Instead of calling on God, I feel as though He has abandoned me…before I ask for help.
I’m working on better, but I can understand the need to ask the question ‘why’. Only problem is, I forget our minds are too finite to understand the ongoings of an infinate God…
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